dear diary,
so here it is. jaim and i are having a hard time again. we had a pretty heated conversation on the road back to teeb. ive laid it all out on the line again, and hopefully im right and that what is gonna change will help our relationship.
ive already told jaime that i dont expect her to have this changed overnight, but i do hope she puts forth a good effort. if this is the case then i promise babe 100% i'll do the same. i wanna be the perfect man for you so bad, but part of my brain isnt letting me do it. its the part of my brain that says "whats the point." i hate this feeling and i wanna be the man i used to be for you. lets do this. let today suck our dick for once. im fighting for you babe. for us.
i'll keep you posted ;)
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
hmm...
dear journal,
sorry its been a while... been lazy lately.
not gonna lie ive been feeling like shit lately. physically i mean. i cant figure out why my body is hating me more and more... first it started with bodily aches and pains. i attributed this to my arthirits and the weather. now i have a strained muscle in my back. this is obviously due to my lack of excercise and overall horrible eating behaviour. i just need to get back on track.
lets think about it. i need to stop eating junk, and start exercising again. id love to start walking again. i wish jaime would come with me though. lets face it it would be beneficial to the both of us. the problem isnt that im not commited, its that i lack the external support system that is jaime. she doesnt understand that this is something i need from her greatly. everynight! we need to go for a 30 min. walk. no exceptions. i think this is the best starting point for us. we have the wii fit too which now never gets used. wii fit actually works too... and u dont even have to go anywhere!!! priorities need to be straightened out thats all... work first, play later. so instead of it being an 8.5 hour day at work, im going to consider is a 9 hour day at work, and as soon as i get home, unless jaime is not with me, i will be going for a walk. if she isnt with me i will wait for her to get home, and we will go for a walk BEFORE supper... we can wait the extra half hour. its not that bad if you really think about it.
i know you are getting this post on your phone jaim so please take it into consideration and provide me your feedback on here please (i need the comments lol)
anywho... thanks for listening blogees :P
i'll keep ya posted ;)
sorry its been a while... been lazy lately.
not gonna lie ive been feeling like shit lately. physically i mean. i cant figure out why my body is hating me more and more... first it started with bodily aches and pains. i attributed this to my arthirits and the weather. now i have a strained muscle in my back. this is obviously due to my lack of excercise and overall horrible eating behaviour. i just need to get back on track.
lets think about it. i need to stop eating junk, and start exercising again. id love to start walking again. i wish jaime would come with me though. lets face it it would be beneficial to the both of us. the problem isnt that im not commited, its that i lack the external support system that is jaime. she doesnt understand that this is something i need from her greatly. everynight! we need to go for a 30 min. walk. no exceptions. i think this is the best starting point for us. we have the wii fit too which now never gets used. wii fit actually works too... and u dont even have to go anywhere!!! priorities need to be straightened out thats all... work first, play later. so instead of it being an 8.5 hour day at work, im going to consider is a 9 hour day at work, and as soon as i get home, unless jaime is not with me, i will be going for a walk. if she isnt with me i will wait for her to get home, and we will go for a walk BEFORE supper... we can wait the extra half hour. its not that bad if you really think about it.
i know you are getting this post on your phone jaim so please take it into consideration and provide me your feedback on here please (i need the comments lol)
anywho... thanks for listening blogees :P
i'll keep ya posted ;)
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