gone fishing :)

dear diary,

just chillin here in fort for the weekend. its nice to see my friends and family.
i think im beginning to be out of the party scene.. or at least a different kind of partying. last night was broing as tits to me. i think it was the fact that there was like no one there. and by no one i mean there wasnt enough of MY kind of people there... it was mostly the poeple that i hated/hated me in high school. and for some reason whenever i see them out at the same events i am, i get nervous and am instantly in a bad mood. i dunno how they feel about me either.. cause i think if they were over the highschool bullshit they would actually say hi to me. but they dont. and all my real friends hang out with them too, so my real friends end up ditching me sometimes. ok all the time. because they are the cool crowd and im not. but oh well... who really gives a fuck any more. i just cant wait for my life to begin.

ill keep ya posted ;)

i am not a whore

dear diary,
so ive decided to become a youtube whore.  thats right i said it.  im going to record everything on video and post it all the time.  look out! ready or not here i come!!!!  lol but seriously its kinda cool...

anywho. things have been alright i guess... not like amazing but not really effed up either.  jaim and i are slowly getting back to normal.. i still feel like im getting the shit end of the stick when it comes to certain things. and i realize jaim gets the shit end of others.. i wish she could just think about how we're both getting the shit of the stick, agree to disagree, and go on with our merry little lives.  i really want to stop fighting with her..  its getting to the point where i dont even want to be around her when shes bitching at me.  i think it would help both of us as indivisuals as well as a couple if she could just hold her tongue once in a while.. i dont just start shit with her all the time, but she loves it seems.  its her choice whether or not to start or keep going a fight.  i always want the fight to end.. but she just keeps it going. i think from now on im just going to ignore her until she learns to control herself and choose her battles.

all that being said, things arent as bad as they have been in the passed.. and i look at that as the glass half full :)

i'll keep you posted ;)

Hi my name is Jeremy this is my life

Jeremy Caul

let's keep our composure!!

dear diary,
so cool me and jaim are starting to get along again... and thats great! I just hope we can keep it together in the long run.. i know things start going downhill when we're arent intimate for a while... and im gonna work on that... but i really hope jaim and i can keep this happiness lasting through the rest of our relationship... i dont wanna revert back to being argumentative and snobby to each other - thats not right.  well thats all for now diary.  til next time...

i'll keep you posted ;)

hey bay-bay hey bay-bay

dear diary,
ive had it with these mother fucking snakes on this mother fucking plane!!!! - samuel l. jackson... dido ;) i say.  dido...

anyways i just thought id give all my avid readers (you know who you both are) lol... im doing alright i suppose... im not necessarily happy but im not angry/sad/upset either.  im more catatonic i think lol. im still struggling with my baby.  i dont wanna fight with her anymore but she's too much of a ball buster for me to even want to agree to her terms sometimes.  i dunno what im gonna do.. im just hoping that this is the tail end of our 2.5 year slump. im looking forward to the rest of our lives :) <3

i'll keep you posted ;)