suck it jesus

dear diary,
frick kathy griffin is hilarious... im pretty sure she's the best stand up comedian ever... i wish i had the courage to do standup. lol...

anywho.. in terrace.. having a lovely little week of vacation. on my way to robbi's grad though so...

i'll keep you posted ;)

journal... what am i at now?

dear diary,
so yeah ive already decided that im not going to continue the whole "journal # whatever" anymore.  its wasting my life.  so i have some fabulous news... i get to wait til the end of the summer before i know if im in nursing or not.. of course... after having my hopes up... oh well...
not having a good day today... keep thinking about what im going to do if i cant be in nursing next year.  its really hard to not think about it. it really makes me wanna cry.  i have to put mine and jaim's life together on hold another year because of my insolence.  Im disgusted with myself. i know this is my depression talking. but i just pray that i get in. then all this can go away.


i'll keep you posted ;)